OK, I don't really hate anything. I don't really even dislike most things. But I thought I'd dedicate this post to clarifying something - with all of you and with myself - how I decide whether I like things or not.
The bottom line is - I like everything unless proven otherwise.
A) There are things
I like/love and can't get enough of. They aren't necessarily bad for me or impeded me from living a normal life, so it's ok that I love them to death. Like, singing or painting or running... philosophical discussions come in here, but should probably be in the next category.
B) There are some things that I always
state I don't like when in actual fact I like it. It's to keep me from going overboard - because as you know, once I get latched onto something I overdo it. An example of things in this category is... chocolate. I HATE IT. :P A lot of food is in this category. For some reason, I have to put hanging out with people in this category too because if I did that as much as I wanted, I'd never get any work done.
C) There are some things that
I grow to like or persuade myself to like because people I care about like it or I didn't really mind either way and it made the situation win-win by me liking it. An example of this is... watching movies really late at night. Ahem Apocalypse Now Redux from 1:3oam - 5am... or drinking.
D) There are things that
I don't really care about, but do because it's necessary for me to care about them. An example is money.
E) Things
I dislike? Dishonesty. I especially dislike my own dishonesty. Sometimes I do things that make me wonder why I did it. Maybe I need to stop trying so hard to get people to like me. I have this really weird need for people to know everything about me. It's like I worry that unless they know everything, they will always misunderstand me. But I realise that it's annoying, so I try to not say too much. But then people say I'm closed. Then I end up blabbing about meaningless things to overcompensate. Very weird.
By the way, it's probably Category B that causes the most confusion with other people. I play a lot of mind tricks with myself to try control my bad habits!!! The bottom line is that I like most things, I don't care what we do. I can entertain myself with a cardboard box (or a Whitcoulls bag...haha). Give me a pencil with that and I'll be set for a week. I don't
need to be continuously reassured or entertained by others... though it'd be
nice sometimes. :)
