My New EnvironmentI've gotten used to being at home again, having to arrange my schedule with three other people's. Yet I'm still not quite grappling with being able to not use them as sources of procrastination. I've spent most of my time at home either working on my poster or falling asleep or sleeping, though.
I managed to catch up with KR and LR the other day, which was really good. It's one of the main reasons I wanted to come back down here for an extended period of time. I miss hanging out with friends and I guess if I don't stay this summer, people will be off all over the place soon. But I'm starting to worry that I've put too many things on my plate again. This week has been monstrously tiring.
Work is okay now that I've gotten to know the names and faces of some of the people. I'm still not sure what to make of it: whether I need to place my trust sparingly and also who to listen to. Everyone has their own perspective on things and has made suggestions as to what I should do. I don't mind having to reconcile different views and come up with my own, that's fine. I just don't know who to trust yet and I think I'm just going to take the plunge and trust first, worry later. Surely, they are just trying to help me with no hidden agenda. I'll be sensible, but if something bad happens, I guess it's something to learn from. But I come home really tired, I guess from the work itself, but also walking around on tip-toes, because I don't know how to be yet. Yet. :)
I guess the fatigue is also the jetlag. Can you believe it? I get jetlagged now. This must be a first. Yet another manifestation of getting older... still sort of exciting though. :P
Oh and another thing I'm excited about is Biophysics! Yet shit-scared. Actually, I'm shit-scared about work's presentation, too. You know, I think I've just gotta accept the fact that my philosophy for life lends to being stressed and shit-scared. If I continually put my all into everything, then I will be fearful of failure and I will have no time to do many things, because I would want to give them my all, too. *sigh* But it still doesn't change the fact I'm shit-scared!!! :(
