That I have to choose between the Academic and Corporate worlds is not worrisome. I have chosen. That the choice has moved from a significant to arbitrary chapter is unsettling: that is, knowing that if I had come here first or if I stayed another (mere) 3 months I could be perfectly comfortable and be as happy as I always have been.

It's difficult to evaluate decisions of your life when you're the type of person that is curious about almost anything, find goodness in almost everything, learn from any situation, find opportunities to nourish any situation so that it is larger than life.

Where do I want to be?

I seem to have drifted from thinking that I work towards some noble cause (cancer, heart disease, liberation of youth/society) to admitting that I work for the people and my relationships. I would quite happily work away in both Academia and Business because I can find meaning in what I do, but mostly because I can respect who I work for and with.

If I had a twin I wouldn't have to feel so bad about leaving. There are laws against abandonment and neglect, you know.

But the even bigger picture than all of that is that people matter most. So more than what I want to do, I am thinking about who I want to meet. That's when the tables turn somewhat.

What have I learned about myself in the past 3 months? Only that right now I pretty much know everything about myself - until I have new relationships that will bring out parts of me I never even imagined.

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